A snippet of a message I sent to my dear pediatrician friends, Kurt and Andy, in the hopes that they can console me and calm my frantic thoughts as I sat nursing Clara who seems to simply be hungry all the time but never eats.
"...here I am a desperate, new mother afraid that we are about to start solids. Seriously? Solids? I thought for sure we'd wait until 6 months but I'm pretty sure she's hungry and showing physical signs that she can handle it. But I don't know if I can handle this milestone. We meet with her pediatrician on Monday for her 4m checkup. Clara is 18w3d today. How do I know she ready really? And that we won't end up with food allergies by introducing too early?"
So as I close this post, I move to the world of internet research as I prepare for our meeting with the pediatrician armed with as much information as possible and in hopes of accurately describing Clara's latest mannerisms and behavior as we decide if she is or is not ready to begin solid foods!
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Friday, August 20, 2010
Roll, Baby, Roll!
Clara rolled from her back to her front today! All by herself!
Despite the fact that the mirror on her Gymini was in her way, she managed to get her entire body flipped over. I had just taken a bite of lunch and found her fighting to stay upright when I looked up! I am sooo proud of her!
Despite the fact that the mirror on her Gymini was in her way, she managed to get her entire body flipped over. I had just taken a bite of lunch and found her fighting to stay upright when I looked up! I am sooo proud of her!
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
4 months old!
Well, folks. My little girl is growing up. She is 4 months old and...............drum roll, please... experts agree that Clara is now SPOILABLE!
Until now, all the expert advice said we were "safe" from spoiling her. Practically speaking, that meant we could give Clara whatever she wanted whenever she wanted it. It reinforced for her that she is safe, she can trust us, and she can know that her needs will be met. It was an incredible experience in getting to know my daughter and learning her signals. It is empowering to know that this little being trusts me and that, in responding to her at the slightest cue, I have taught her how to communicate what she needs before ever needing to cry out - for the most part. Of course, she is pretty naturally content and I can't take credit for that! She gets that from her Daddy!
Things have rapidly been changing over the past month.
"Spoilable" means she is now old enough to develop bad habits, as she is capable of: (1) learning to self-soothe, and (2) becoming dependent on "crutches." As parents, we have to be careful not to get in the way of her learning how to calm herself (ie. giving her a pacifier when she doesn't really want or need it, rocking/swinging her to sleep when it actually makes it harder for her to fall asleep). It's the first introduction to "knowing what's best" for your child. For example, Clara thinks she needs to nurse as she gets tired. Sucking is soothing for all babies. BUT! now that she is so aware of her environment, having the smell of Mommy, the feeling of my breast or shirt under her hand, the sensation of my nipple in her mouth KEEPS her awake. She starts to nod off and then realizes I am there, and she begins sucking again. That was when I realized I was going to have to listen to my child cry for the first time and knowingly deprive her of what she wants in order to help her get to sleep.
She has actually begun to cry MORE - which I believe is due to her getting closer and closer to early speech development. She's telling us when she is frustrated, angry, helpless, excited, bored, tired, etc. all through different grunt patterns, cries, and coos. Her newborn grunts while sleeping have been traded for grunts prior to passing gas or belching. I hope this means it will be easier to potty train down the road! I am just waiting for her to begin babbling soon. Every once in a while, she will make a front-of-the-mouth sound in the middle of a crying spell or when she is having a cooing/grunting "conversation" with her Daddy or I.
Routine is all the more important for her. Babies thrive on routine because it gives them cues as to what comes next and gives them a certain sense of power in their uncertain world as they learn to anticipate what it coming next. When Clara first started showing signs of excitement or patience as I would prepare to feed her, we realized she was capable of learning routine at a basic level. So, we began introducing little bits of routine: a bath before bedtime, a song before laying her down, etc. We are constantly adapting to her needs as her needs or cues change, and as she is becoming more and more aware and interested in her environment, I have begun putting more and more structure into our daily routine. For example, my goal for each day:
It's a heck of a schedule and it is a daily effort to make sure that the schedule is still working for her. But she is taking so VERY well to it. It is all built on what she needs and the routine she kind of settled into on her own as far as timing of naps and feedings. It seems to be really great for her as she is now falling asleep faster and for longer. It just took me paying attention to her patterns and then reinforcing them and guiding her into a consistent pattern. Plus, it sure helps Mommy and Daddy know when we can and can't fit in a shower or pay some bills - you know, the fun stuff!
Until now, all the expert advice said we were "safe" from spoiling her. Practically speaking, that meant we could give Clara whatever she wanted whenever she wanted it. It reinforced for her that she is safe, she can trust us, and she can know that her needs will be met. It was an incredible experience in getting to know my daughter and learning her signals. It is empowering to know that this little being trusts me and that, in responding to her at the slightest cue, I have taught her how to communicate what she needs before ever needing to cry out - for the most part. Of course, she is pretty naturally content and I can't take credit for that! She gets that from her Daddy!
Things have rapidly been changing over the past month.
"Spoilable" means she is now old enough to develop bad habits, as she is capable of: (1) learning to self-soothe, and (2) becoming dependent on "crutches." As parents, we have to be careful not to get in the way of her learning how to calm herself (ie. giving her a pacifier when she doesn't really want or need it, rocking/swinging her to sleep when it actually makes it harder for her to fall asleep). It's the first introduction to "knowing what's best" for your child. For example, Clara thinks she needs to nurse as she gets tired. Sucking is soothing for all babies. BUT! now that she is so aware of her environment, having the smell of Mommy, the feeling of my breast or shirt under her hand, the sensation of my nipple in her mouth KEEPS her awake. She starts to nod off and then realizes I am there, and she begins sucking again. That was when I realized I was going to have to listen to my child cry for the first time and knowingly deprive her of what she wants in order to help her get to sleep.
She has actually begun to cry MORE - which I believe is due to her getting closer and closer to early speech development. She's telling us when she is frustrated, angry, helpless, excited, bored, tired, etc. all through different grunt patterns, cries, and coos. Her newborn grunts while sleeping have been traded for grunts prior to passing gas or belching. I hope this means it will be easier to potty train down the road! I am just waiting for her to begin babbling soon. Every once in a while, she will make a front-of-the-mouth sound in the middle of a crying spell or when she is having a cooing/grunting "conversation" with her Daddy or I.
Routine is all the more important for her. Babies thrive on routine because it gives them cues as to what comes next and gives them a certain sense of power in their uncertain world as they learn to anticipate what it coming next. When Clara first started showing signs of excitement or patience as I would prepare to feed her, we realized she was capable of learning routine at a basic level. So, we began introducing little bits of routine: a bath before bedtime, a song before laying her down, etc. We are constantly adapting to her needs as her needs or cues change, and as she is becoming more and more aware and interested in her environment, I have begun putting more and more structure into our daily routine. For example, my goal for each day:
- 8:00-9:30 Wakes up for the day, she nurses, diaper change and mini conversation/laughter on her changing table
- I walk her around the house, say good morning to Daddy, and let her slowly wake up until she begins to show signs of wanting to grab at things and put them in her mouth and being ready to begin the day! She plays on her Gymini while I make coffee and breakfast. By the time Alan and I have eaten and sipped until we've drained the coffee pot (~60-90 minutes), she is ready for:
- Nap #1 (~45 minutes)
- I nurse her and then wear her in her Baby Bjorn while we dance and sing to music and/or I straighten up the house and get a load of laundry done. I tell her what I'm doing as I'm doing it so she learns names for the things around her and can hear the structure of language. (~60-75 minutes)
- Nap #2 (~45 minutes)
- I nurse her and get her dressed for the day (the temp is usually too cool for the first half of the day to bother taking her out of her footed pjs) and strap her into her carseat/stroller and we head to a small park next to the closest library - about a 20 minute walk. She typically naps on the way to and on the way back from the park. (~1 1/2-2 hours)
- The late afternoon and evening is a bit uncertain still but when Daddy gets home about an hour later, he will wear her in the Bjorn and walk around with her outside or talk with her on the couch until it is time to make dinner.
- She sits in her swing while we eat.
- 6:30-6:45 we give her her bath, put baby oil all over her sweet body, dress her in her pjs, nurse.
- 6:45-7:00 she gets a couple of songs and is put in bed with her pacifier and gentle pats on her thigh until she is calm and eyes closed. I say, "Mommy loves you, sweet girl. It's time to go 'night-night'." How we REALLY get her to SLEEP is a-whole-nother post.
It's a heck of a schedule and it is a daily effort to make sure that the schedule is still working for her. But she is taking so VERY well to it. It is all built on what she needs and the routine she kind of settled into on her own as far as timing of naps and feedings. It seems to be really great for her as she is now falling asleep faster and for longer. It just took me paying attention to her patterns and then reinforcing them and guiding her into a consistent pattern. Plus, it sure helps Mommy and Daddy know when we can and can't fit in a shower or pay some bills - you know, the fun stuff!
Friday, August 13, 2010
Grandma and Grandpa Visit!
We had our first visitors in CA! Clara's Grandma and Grandpa - Alan's parents - came to enjoy the many wonders of CA (or at least those within 1.5 hours of our house) for a week. Fortunately for us, they think we are wonderful so we got to seem them each evening and 3 out of the 7 days they were here.
It was incredible to be able to spend time with them after having lived so close to them for so long. And Clara has grown so much in the 10 weeks since they had seen her! I was so happy for her to get to see them and hear them and smell them and play with them. Unfortunately, they were here at the peak (and very end) of our most recent sleep struggles with her. So the days were filled with attempts to get her to nap and the evenings and nights were filled with the constant up and down of running into her room to soothe/rock/nurse her to sleep.
They did have an occasional moment here and there to play with her, and I've included a few of my favorite pictures taken from my iPhone.
We can't wait until they are here again for Thanksgiving!
It was incredible to be able to spend time with them after having lived so close to them for so long. And Clara has grown so much in the 10 weeks since they had seen her! I was so happy for her to get to see them and hear them and smell them and play with them. Unfortunately, they were here at the peak (and very end) of our most recent sleep struggles with her. So the days were filled with attempts to get her to nap and the evenings and nights were filled with the constant up and down of running into her room to soothe/rock/nurse her to sleep.
They did have an occasional moment here and there to play with her, and I've included a few of my favorite pictures taken from my iPhone.
Headed to Napa! I think she must have heard that this trip involved some WINE!
Nappin' on the porch with Daddy.
We didn't have quite enough wine at the vineyards so... we took advantage of the front porch and continued the enjoyment of the California whether and good company.
While Daddy, Grandma and Grandpa visited the caves being developed at Hunicutt Winery, Mommy and Clara just chilled at the tasting room/guest house. (We didn't want to get dirty from the fine "moon dust" in the caves.)
Last chance for some quality time with Grandpa on the porch.
He looks like a Grandpa doesn't he? Polo shirt, gym shorts, black socks and tennis shoes. :-)
She clearly loves him anyway!
We can't wait until they are here again for Thanksgiving!
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Falls asleep in Crib
She fell asleep in her crib for her morning nap! It took her less than 10 minutes, and it only worked for her first nap. However, this brings great hope that this will spread to her naps throughout the day and even bedtime in the very near future!
My daughter is growing up so fast! I am SO proud and so sad!
My daughter is growing up so fast! I am SO proud and so sad!
Voices
Last night, I was feeding Clara for the umpteenth time trying to nurse her to sleep as it seems to be the only thing that settles her.
Alan came in to sit on the ottoman and keep me company and my morale up. He only said a few words...
Clara's eyes grow wide, she looks as far to the side(towards the ceiling) as she can until she has to turn her head to continue the hunt for the source. She couldn't turn far enough to find him as he was directly behind her. But she seemed to be satisfied with her search and turn to quietly suck once more. She knew her Daddy's voice!
She has long recognized our voices, and we've known she can tell where that a sound is coming from one side or another as she has turned her head to find the source of a noise before - but she isn't consistent.
This, however, was the most clear and precious moment of her recognizing her Daddy's voice and trying to find him.
That same night, our conversation put her to sleep more quickly and soundly than ever. It is incredibly powerful to know that your daughter feels the most comfortable and calmed by the sound of her parents voices in conversation. We are so lucky to have led lives that have allowed us to be at home throughout my pregnancy and since she has been born. Our voices are probably the most constant thing in her life. A wonderful feeling for a mother.
Alan came in to sit on the ottoman and keep me company and my morale up. He only said a few words...
Clara's eyes grow wide, she looks as far to the side(towards the ceiling) as she can until she has to turn her head to continue the hunt for the source. She couldn't turn far enough to find him as he was directly behind her. But she seemed to be satisfied with her search and turn to quietly suck once more. She knew her Daddy's voice!
She has long recognized our voices, and we've known she can tell where that a sound is coming from one side or another as she has turned her head to find the source of a noise before - but she isn't consistent.
This, however, was the most clear and precious moment of her recognizing her Daddy's voice and trying to find him.
That same night, our conversation put her to sleep more quickly and soundly than ever. It is incredibly powerful to know that your daughter feels the most comfortable and calmed by the sound of her parents voices in conversation. We are so lucky to have led lives that have allowed us to be at home throughout my pregnancy and since she has been born. Our voices are probably the most constant thing in her life. A wonderful feeling for a mother.
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