Tuesday, September 14, 2010

5 Months Old

Clara turned 5 months old today.  I put up a sign on her door so that everyone would know and bought her a balloon at the hospital gift shop.

She had a hard day.  She had her PICC line cleaned and redressed which wasn't fun as they pin her down.  And, she had an ultrasound because of concern about her kidneys.  Her pain seems to be worse, and she is showing more sources of discomfort.  Her nose is running, eyes are watering, stomach hurts before she poops, and she is now being given ~7 oral meds over the course of the day.  I was literally traumatized after her night nurse gave her two of the meds.  She made Clara spontaneously throw up at the first one and scream and struggle more than I have ever seen with the second.  I took over after that.  She looked like she was shoving it down her throat not into the side of her cheek. We have started giving her her pain meds every 5 hours instead of 6 due to her overall discomfort today, and, while she has had more awake periods today, they haven't been very happy.  Alan did take one snapshot, however, that made me cry.

My Aunt Shelly Schutze sent me this necklace which I got today.  I have no words for how small, delicate, simple, and powerfully beautiful this piece is.  It is the Miraculous Medal on top of a heart with "peace" engraved on the top and "Clara" on the back.  The thought of the blessed mother looking over me and the peace that we want for Clara


shelly schutze said...

Made me cry, too! What a beautiful picture of Clara in her safe place on her mommy's chest. Hope today is better for her and that her kidney function is good. Love & prayers for you all - shelly

M.K. said...

What a lovely gift (and picture)! This whole darn thing makes me cry, but the loving and compassionate response of so many people (many of whom we don't even know) gives me renewed hope. God loves to see us loving each other and I know He is responding with grace to get us through this. Hang in there, Mommy. You are such an incredible mother for Clara.


M.K. said...

I love you Brooke, Clara and Alan! I'm praying!


Mom/Mimi/Mama Deb said...

Mimi and Poppy need to learn "log in" as themselves on the blog, don't we? :)

Anonymous said...

As I sit here with tears in my eyes, and my heart melted down to nothing my continued prayers and thoughts are with you both...Love Traci

boonehart said...

ok - this one made me cry, too! What an amazingly thoughtful, loving gift. one you will cherish forever. I love you two girls so much!

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